So i was watching the bachelor tonight...yes i was actually watching that show. This season they actually seem to have a half way decent guy named Jake (he is hott). As i watched i found myself wishing i had tried out for the show. I realize i don't fit any of the normal stereotypes of the girls that end up on those kinds of shows, but i really want to know if someone like me could actually make it on. I mean i want to find love as much as the next person and there is no better place to find love than on a national tv show!
I think im wallowing (spelling?) in s bit of self pity because i have no one special in my life. I hate when people ask me that..."do you have someone special in you life?" Ugh....no i don't damn it!! Unless you count a cat? (no thats not true, i don't even have a cat...tears).
People say love will find you when you're not looking....ok im not looking, hello? love, did you hear me...im not looking.
We'll see if love actually believes my trickery (insert evil laughter).
AK
Monday, January 25, 2010
Thursday, January 7, 2010
I think i may have lost my mind...
I seem to have had a lapse in my sanity because i have decided to run the Country Music Half Marathon on April 24th. Some people may say that even though 13.1 miles is a long distance to run at one time, it's not that big a deal for a seemingly in-shape girl. BUT i have not run as a form of exercise in years, and even back then i don't think i ever ran consecutive miles.
So why did i have this sudden moment of insanity? It was my sister Amber who first put the idea in my head. I brushed if off pretty quick, but it stayed in the back of my head...a nagging voice challenging my determination. Yes, i hate running i always found it boring, yes i've never run any sort of distance in my life, yes this endeavor could very well kill me (overdramatic i know)...but i needed this in my life, at this moment. I need to prove to myself and yes to others, that i can to something so out of my comfort zone and succeed..gosh darn it!
Lucky for me i have some very amazing friends and sister who want to take this journey with me, because honestly if you don't have some accountability after the first few weeks you won't make yourself run that 6 miles on a sunday morning.
Im excited and scared at the same time, but i haven't really been excited about anything in a long time, so this is a good feeling to me. My desire to prove myself capable is very strong...i'll admit to having some not-so-great reasons for doing this. I have an Ex that would have never thought me able to do something like this, and though he probably will never know about it i'll know and that gives me a strange comfort and ego boost.
So here is begins my roughly 14 weeks of training, i ran 3 miles today which for me is rather huge since i never thought i would be able to do that right off the bat.
Wish me luck universe!
AK
So why did i have this sudden moment of insanity? It was my sister Amber who first put the idea in my head. I brushed if off pretty quick, but it stayed in the back of my head...a nagging voice challenging my determination. Yes, i hate running i always found it boring, yes i've never run any sort of distance in my life, yes this endeavor could very well kill me (overdramatic i know)...but i needed this in my life, at this moment. I need to prove to myself and yes to others, that i can to something so out of my comfort zone and succeed..gosh darn it!
Lucky for me i have some very amazing friends and sister who want to take this journey with me, because honestly if you don't have some accountability after the first few weeks you won't make yourself run that 6 miles on a sunday morning.
Im excited and scared at the same time, but i haven't really been excited about anything in a long time, so this is a good feeling to me. My desire to prove myself capable is very strong...i'll admit to having some not-so-great reasons for doing this. I have an Ex that would have never thought me able to do something like this, and though he probably will never know about it i'll know and that gives me a strange comfort and ego boost.
So here is begins my roughly 14 weeks of training, i ran 3 miles today which for me is rather huge since i never thought i would be able to do that right off the bat.
Wish me luck universe!
AK
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