So i was watching the bachelor tonight...yes i was actually watching that show. This season they actually seem to have a half way decent guy named Jake (he is hott). As i watched i found myself wishing i had tried out for the show. I realize i don't fit any of the normal stereotypes of the girls that end up on those kinds of shows, but i really want to know if someone like me could actually make it on. I mean i want to find love as much as the next person and there is no better place to find love than on a national tv show!
I think im wallowing (spelling?) in s bit of self pity because i have no one special in my life. I hate when people ask me that..."do you have someone special in you life?" Ugh....no i don't damn it!! Unless you count a cat? (no thats not true, i don't even have a cat...tears).
People say love will find you when you're not looking....ok im not looking, hello? love, did you hear me...im not looking.
We'll see if love actually believes my trickery (insert evil laughter).
AK
Monday, January 25, 2010
Thursday, January 7, 2010
I think i may have lost my mind...
I seem to have had a lapse in my sanity because i have decided to run the Country Music Half Marathon on April 24th. Some people may say that even though 13.1 miles is a long distance to run at one time, it's not that big a deal for a seemingly in-shape girl. BUT i have not run as a form of exercise in years, and even back then i don't think i ever ran consecutive miles.
So why did i have this sudden moment of insanity? It was my sister Amber who first put the idea in my head. I brushed if off pretty quick, but it stayed in the back of my head...a nagging voice challenging my determination. Yes, i hate running i always found it boring, yes i've never run any sort of distance in my life, yes this endeavor could very well kill me (overdramatic i know)...but i needed this in my life, at this moment. I need to prove to myself and yes to others, that i can to something so out of my comfort zone and succeed..gosh darn it!
Lucky for me i have some very amazing friends and sister who want to take this journey with me, because honestly if you don't have some accountability after the first few weeks you won't make yourself run that 6 miles on a sunday morning.
Im excited and scared at the same time, but i haven't really been excited about anything in a long time, so this is a good feeling to me. My desire to prove myself capable is very strong...i'll admit to having some not-so-great reasons for doing this. I have an Ex that would have never thought me able to do something like this, and though he probably will never know about it i'll know and that gives me a strange comfort and ego boost.
So here is begins my roughly 14 weeks of training, i ran 3 miles today which for me is rather huge since i never thought i would be able to do that right off the bat.
Wish me luck universe!
AK
So why did i have this sudden moment of insanity? It was my sister Amber who first put the idea in my head. I brushed if off pretty quick, but it stayed in the back of my head...a nagging voice challenging my determination. Yes, i hate running i always found it boring, yes i've never run any sort of distance in my life, yes this endeavor could very well kill me (overdramatic i know)...but i needed this in my life, at this moment. I need to prove to myself and yes to others, that i can to something so out of my comfort zone and succeed..gosh darn it!
Lucky for me i have some very amazing friends and sister who want to take this journey with me, because honestly if you don't have some accountability after the first few weeks you won't make yourself run that 6 miles on a sunday morning.
Im excited and scared at the same time, but i haven't really been excited about anything in a long time, so this is a good feeling to me. My desire to prove myself capable is very strong...i'll admit to having some not-so-great reasons for doing this. I have an Ex that would have never thought me able to do something like this, and though he probably will never know about it i'll know and that gives me a strange comfort and ego boost.
So here is begins my roughly 14 weeks of training, i ran 3 miles today which for me is rather huge since i never thought i would be able to do that right off the bat.
Wish me luck universe!
AK
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Ode to Zumba
I have been racking my brain trying to figure out what my next post would be about. Honestly, all the ideas so far have been on the negative side, BUT i just returned from my Wednesday night Zumba class feeling energized, and good about myself....so this post will be dedicated to my love of Zumba!
Zumba, for those who are unfamilar, is a latin or hip-hop infused aerobics class. I started going last May and this is by far the only workout i have stuck with. It's just plain fun! Usually trying to get myself to the gym is not high on the priority list, do i really want to go run on a treadmill for 30 minutes? Blah....ugh..boring...
Also, i have a tendency to be intimidated by the other people in the gym, you know the ones im talking about...Mr or Mrs "i workout all the time, look at my great butt, my big muscles". Yeah, i don't want to be around them. But Zumba is different it brings together a wide range of women (guys seem to be scared of this class), you have old and young, fat and skinny, coordinated and uncoordinated, but everyone just has a good time and does what they can. I always leave feeling like im in WAY better shape than i actually am.
So this is my advice, go to a Zumba class at your local YMCA bring a friend and have some fun...while burning calories!
AK
Zumba, for those who are unfamilar, is a latin or hip-hop infused aerobics class. I started going last May and this is by far the only workout i have stuck with. It's just plain fun! Usually trying to get myself to the gym is not high on the priority list, do i really want to go run on a treadmill for 30 minutes? Blah....ugh..boring...
Also, i have a tendency to be intimidated by the other people in the gym, you know the ones im talking about...Mr or Mrs "i workout all the time, look at my great butt, my big muscles". Yeah, i don't want to be around them. But Zumba is different it brings together a wide range of women (guys seem to be scared of this class), you have old and young, fat and skinny, coordinated and uncoordinated, but everyone just has a good time and does what they can. I always leave feeling like im in WAY better shape than i actually am.
So this is my advice, go to a Zumba class at your local YMCA bring a friend and have some fun...while burning calories!
AK
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Beginnings...
Ok...so through the inspiration of my amazing friend Hayley Graham, i have decided to start a blog. This is for no other reason than an opportunity for me to express my feelings at any given time.I have no clue if anyone will ever read my posts or give me and my rambling thoughts more than a second thought, but i do not care (this is for me and only me...it cannot be for anyone else).
So this is the beginning of something new, maybe even fun or helpful or both....but i know this, im excited!
Goodbye for now.
AprilKara
So this is the beginning of something new, maybe even fun or helpful or both....but i know this, im excited!
Goodbye for now.
AprilKara
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